Sunday, January 10, 2010

#1st Serenade: Misplaced trust


I was thinking of you and our future


While I’m holding and kissing your best picture

Cause I’m missing you badly here, my dear


I thought that even we are miles from each other


Our trust can always hold and bind us together


Couldn't ever imagine that this trust will break my heart forever..




Sometimes the wind told me of a bad feeling


Then I can't help myself from asking 'How are you doing?'


I'm sorry if my concern seems to be annoying


This is the very least that I can do for you, my darling


Cause I’m not ready yet to fit your finger with that special ring




We are apart far-far away


Maybe that is why your feelings fade away


And that truly is the only obstacle in our way


Why can't you trust my promises which I made that day?

Don't you know that I trust you to heart, even when you ignore my calls on Friday?

I realize that your love is fainting, and i can't make it stay

Just stop telling lies because you’re breaking my heart away


You’re my princess, you’re my darling buds of May


My dear, you wouldn't tell lies to me, would you?



I’m willing to give you everything a man can ever give to his beloved one


But now i understand that 'willing to give' is not good enough for a woman

And now, none of what I say will matters anymore, cause I’m already beaten


By someone that you just happen to drop into, and suddenly fallen


Now my years of hope just turn to rubbish, waiting to be burned


Cause you’re now walking on the cloud nine with your newly chosen


Don’t you realize that you're putting me thru hell, while you’re in heaven
?

Are you really that indifferent?



Darling I love you


And I will always do


Even though I know that I can never hold you


Even though you betrayed and cheated me, and I know I’m a fool


You can laugh at me, yet I can never get mad at you


And you will never know how much I love you




Now our story is over, I shouldn’t linger here anymore


I need to move on, my road is crystal clear


But even the wound is healed, the scar will always be there


I pray that you won’t regret, the decision that you take


Our road was forked, maybe this is fate that ALLAH create


As a lesson in my life, and as an atonement for what I’ve made




Now my tears has dried, it is time for a comeback


I still have my family and my friends, behind my back


Just remind yourself and your mother, wealth won't always a life warrant


And for sure, ALLAH is looking over my very breath


HE will grant me someone who will match me perfect..


I'll give all my heart to her, hoping that it won't break
..
again..

Insya ALLAH.. :)

13 comments:

  1. great!! solute! toin..toin...:)

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  2. boh...buat po nyo mu jiwa jiwa ....soba boh...tp menarik ayat mu ni...nanti kawe nak pinjam ciket..deh

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  3. @azie: thnx zira!

    @ikhwan: tak salah pn, kan wan? kalau istri kte meninggal, tak salah pn klu kte still igtkan dia, kan? aku tau takde makne nye igt, tp at least aku tau yg aku btul2 ikhlas dgn dia. tapi lm2 nnt mmg bleh lupa jgk, jgn risau.. bak kata prof aku, "there is nothing that time could not heal"

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  4. "trustness". aku ckup sensitip ng word nih. tp aku akur, dlm kitab hidup mmg penting giler. jgn mensiakn kepercayaan (amanah) yg diberikn, "org memberi, kite merase". once u done, nyesal la seumur idup. caye la. jd, yg berkenaan, pk2 & renungkn la.

    "just remind yourself & YOUR MOTHER, wealth won't always a life warrant"
    kamus klate ~ "kirim salam ko mok, oyak harto xleh bawok masuk kubo"

    "i still have my family & MY FRIENDS, behind my back"
    kamus idup ~ "gg"

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  5. jid, lupekn. terus ke dpn. baru jolo bey dih...

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  6. sob sob....ini la warna kehidupan....sayangi la org yg benar menyayangi anda...bukan sayang pada org yag anda cintai....sekian...terima kasih....bankai!!

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  7. too true, wan.. i am so~~ blinded~~ =.="

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  8. aku raso supo drama tv3...lolx. sedey seh..

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  9. bkan drama tv3 pih, tapi drama spanyol, ala2 rosalinda gitu.. huhuhu..

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  10. uaaaa~.. aku pn sedih gakk... sob2..... go lah jid, tp kok ye pn jgn la tngk aku nak post komen ni.. gi la jauh2...syuh2.. (jid kat sebelah aku..) damn..

    life must go on jid, live like ur dyingg~.. huhu

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  11. pro ar ko tonjid.. very sincere poem i've ever read.. suprised coz still got a guy like u in dis world.. for me,just forget dat girl.. peace!

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  12. uhu..betul2..juz forget about her..hoho..ni je kew dlm blog ko..update le..uhu..(~~,)

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  13. dah update la zira.. skang ni tgh giler2 nyer bz ni.. bc post yg bru, ada secret message tau kat dlm tu..

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