#4th Serenade: One year

Clock tocks..
Times moves..
Wind wafts..
Seasons switches..
One year passes..
My feeling fades..
Or is it not?


People says,
Time is the best healer..
But I can still feel the pain..


People says,
Every cloud has a silver lining..
But I couldn't see it yet..


People says,
To err is human, to forgive is divine..
Well of course, I'm just a lowly human..


People says,
Its better to light a candle than blaming the darkness..
Now, where the hell is my candles?!
LOL


Emotions are really our worst and best attribute.. Hmph..

#3rd Serenade: Cherish the moment

While I was wandering in the emptiness

I suddenly realize that I'm always shrouded with goodness

So much goodness, I failed to appreciate their existence

How ungrateful of me, for not keen of Allah's graciousness


Life won't always go as we wanted

But that doesn't mean that it's a cursed episode

It's just a matter of our acceptance towards fate

And how we react, and move forward


Life is the biggest school ever

So many papers and quizzes, longing for an answer

Do it wrongly, you'll face the wrath of your teacher

We make errors, pay the tolls, then we roll over

Ten months has passed

I wonder how much I've changed

So much things happened

I wonder how much i have really learned

In years ahead

I know there so much more things to be explored

More joys and sorrows, as it is already fated

I wish i wont be the same kid

I want to live this only life the best, before i died...

#2nd Serenade: Lost, but not forgotten

It is about two months in despair

Wane away the love

I'm still drowning in grim

Lament is written, but what's gone is gone

Lonely i am, as so it seem

A trifle it is, i won't succumb

Live happily dear, and i will be

Wade through alone, will i wither?

As god's willing, such things happens, definitely

You left, so will i, even when my heart refuses so

Shatter everything dear, it won't matter, because it's you..

#1st Serenade: Misplaced trust

I was thinking of you and our future

While I’m holding and kissing your best picture

Cause I’m missing you badly here, my dear

I thought that even we are miles from each other

Our trust can always hold and bind us together

Couldn't ever imagine that this trust will break my heart forever..



Sometimes the wind told me of a bad feeling

Then I can't help myself from asking 'How are you doing?'

I'm sorry if my concern seems to be annoying

This is the very least that I can do for you, my darling

Cause I’m not ready yet to fit your finger with that special ring



We are apart far-far away

Maybe that is why your feelings fade away

And that truly is the only obstacle in our way

Why can't you trust my promises which I made that day?

Don't you know that I trust you to heart, even when you ignore my calls on Friday?

I realize that your love is fainting, and i can't make it stay

Just stop telling lies because you’re breaking my heart away

You’re my princess, you’re my darling buds of May

My dear, you wouldn't tell lies to me, would you?



I’m willing to give you everything a man can ever give to his beloved one

But now i understand that 'willing to give' is not good enough for a woman

And now, none of what I say will matters anymore, cause I’m already beaten

By someone that you just happen to drop into, and suddenly fallen

Now my years of hope just turn to rubbish, waiting to be burned

Cause you’re now walking on the cloud nine with your newly chosen

Don’t you realize that you're putting me thru hell, while you’re in heaven?

Are you really that indifferent?



Darling I love you

And I will always do

Even though I know that I can never hold you

Even though you betrayed and cheated me, and I know I’m a fool

You can laugh at me, yet I can never get mad at you

And you will never know how much I love you



Now our story is over, I shouldn’t linger here anymore

I need to move on, my road is crystal clear

But even the wound is healed, the scar will always be there

I pray that you won’t regret, the decision that you take

Our road was forked, maybe this is fate that ALLAH create

As a lesson in my life, and as an atonement for what I’ve made



Now my tears has dried, it is time for a comeback

I still have my family and my friends, behind my back

Just remind yourself and your mother, wealth won't always a life warrant

And for sure, ALLAH is looking over my very breath

HE will grant me someone who will match me perfect..

I'll give all my heart to her, hoping that it won't break..
again..

Insya ALLAH.. :)